today the 14th

today im feeling so december. i went to smart bookstore at shah alam mall and found that they sell snowglobes. wonderful thing about them is that they have this music thing under it that when you spin it, apart from the lovely music coming out of it, there is something inside the globe that will move around and keep stirring the white snow inside it. it felt reaally magical and i reaaally like the feeling that it made inside of me that i was glued to the ground and i just want to stay there watching it. unfortunately i was short of money at that time. so im not waiting for anyone to get me one of them snowglobes, im getting one myself sooon and i will post picture of it in my blog when i got hold of one of them. i just hope that they wont be sold out otherwise i will be very disappointed because i have not seen it anywhere before.

call me childish, immature, whatever, i dont care. see, this is the kind of thing that makes me really happy. no matter what it is, when it gives u something, a feeling that stirs inside you that lifts u up, it is really magical that you cant even forget the feeling afterwards. i have already got one snowglobe i bought at a carboot sale. actually, i got two but one of them fell and shattered. it broke my heart as well at that time. im stil grieving over it because its my favourite snowglobe with a tiny little crystal dancer inside it . no music though, and no stirrer. its a classic snowglobe that requires you to shake it but its really pretty. the other one has a teddy bear inside of it. and thankfully, i still have it but its not white bits that floats around but glitters.. but it is still pretty.

the feeling of december i mentioned earlier, ermm, i cant easily explain.. i cant really say it feels christmassy because i dont celebrate christmas but it does have that seasonal feeling to it.. its merry and exciting. at this point of time, i remember i used to make a list of names that will recieve my christmas cards..its somehow saddening as well actually because i remember being excited about christmas than getting excited for hari raya. maybe because its how the environment was when i was a teenager, the time when you are discovering your trueself, the time when you rebel and make mistakes and learnt a lot about life. i even got little gifts and cards from my friends even from those who dont celebrate christmas. its just how things are during this time of the year, where everyone gave out presents just because its the end of the year. but now, christmas is just another celebration like chinese new year and deepavali and im feeling more of the hari raya spirit. most probably because im now in malaysia :P ppl here are much more stingy haha. im only kidding :p but i do miss the environment and feeling..

one thing in similar though, its quite cold due to the rainy season. much colder than any of the days in malaysia so it kinda reminds me of the days of winter back in uk.. huhu..

cold and gloomy.

december marks the end of a year.. dont be sad though, cuz it is also the start of a new year.